God's plan for me and Amanda became a bit more clear today. She will be taking the big step by moving to Tallahassee. Her interview went smashingly well and she'll be starting her job at the end of May. Big thanks to the Harts and Kim H. for their integral parts in making this happen for us. Your kind generosity we will never be able to repay. Although exciting for the both of us, Amanda's parents and grandparents will be the ones left behind of sorts in all of this. I can't even begin to imagine how much of an adjustment it'll be for them. It goes without saying how much they will miss her and how hard it will be to adjust. There's a guilt-ridden sense floating inside me because I'm taking their little girl from them...and for that I feel as if I'm lessening their quality of life. I don't quite know how I'll sort those feelings out because a big part of me knows that this is the next logical step in our relationship. It seems as if every beat of my heart these days echoes in to the distance. The unknown spawns a sense of fear because I've never experienced anything like this before. All the years of my life have been lessons learned (not before failing many of them)...and along the way God saw fit that I become a man for Him.
When Amanda is close to me, the beating of my heart no longer echoes. Instead it beats as one with her. Every time you're in my arms, I pray that you'll never feel far away from home. I am forever grateful that you took this big leap of faith for God, for me, and for us. Please know that I'll be with you every step of the way. Your hand I won't let go. In His providence we'll abide.
When Amanda is close to me, the beating of my heart no longer echoes. Instead it beats as one with her. Every time you're in my arms, I pray that you'll never feel far away from home. I am forever grateful that you took this big leap of faith for God, for me, and for us. Please know that I'll be with you every step of the way. Your hand I won't let go. In His providence we'll abide.
On a more somber note, Julie's dog was put to sleep today after her health deteriorated quickly during her last days. The empathy pours out of me right now because it was just eight months ago where I had to do the same to Murphy. The pain and emotion-filled times will linger - it's always the inevitable part of being a pet owner.
We will miss you Whiskey. You have been such a joy for Julie and we all know that a lot of the happiness in her life throughout the years have been brought on by you. Despite our teasing, we always knew you were a great dog and meant a lot to Julie. No longer are you suffering. A lifelong of happy memories you have left behind. Rest in peace pretty girl.
Sustain us through the triumphs and hurting in this world O'God...
~KH
The Namesake (viewed on 4/21): 8 1/2 Turkey Legs
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