A fellow co-worker said that I looked pensive today sitting in front of my computer. Perhaps I was, but I don't know if I like the fact that I'm that pellucid to someone that I only sorta know. He knew that it was my birthday when he walked by my outrageously-decorated office. He also knew that I turned 30. I think my mild discontent at being an age that supposedly solidifies my place in this world as an official non-youngin' was what he saw. Furthermore, anyone younger than me can call me OLD now - herumph!!!
All in all, this was one of my best birthdays in recent memory. I typically don't like surprises or anyone making a big hooha about it, but for some weird reason, I wasn't totally opposed to the fact that people wanted to celebrate my birthday this year. I think what's occurring before my eyes is a slow deterioration of my pertinacious views on being the center of attention. I can't seem to avoid it these days when I'm in Albany, so instead of fighting the urge to be falsely humble, I've learned - from Amanda - to just take in fact that I might not be such a horrible guy. I hope that doesn't come across as self-indulgent. I feel I can't be doing too much wrong if there are people genuinely showing care for me and wishing me well on this day to which I was birthed 30 years ago. My admission to anyone reading this is that I like being appreciated and being the person that has been welcomed into so many people's lives.
All in all, this was one of my best birthdays in recent memory. I typically don't like surprises or anyone making a big hooha about it, but for some weird reason, I wasn't totally opposed to the fact that people wanted to celebrate my birthday this year. I think what's occurring before my eyes is a slow deterioration of my pertinacious views on being the center of attention. I can't seem to avoid it these days when I'm in Albany, so instead of fighting the urge to be falsely humble, I've learned - from Amanda - to just take in fact that I might not be such a horrible guy. I hope that doesn't come across as self-indulgent. I feel I can't be doing too much wrong if there are people genuinely showing care for me and wishing me well on this day to which I was birthed 30 years ago. My admission to anyone reading this is that I like being appreciated and being the person that has been welcomed into so many people's lives.
Aside from my birthday, there hasn't been much going on other than the blossoming of me and Amanda - and her family. I must say that things are continuing to progress really well and that our trip out to California can't come soon enough. I really can't wait for the family to meet this southern bell. I think back to a recent comment from a friend of mine who said that Amanda is so likable that she can't see anyone not liking her. I believe that to be true. She is so kind and gentle-spirited that one can only be infected positively by her. I could gloat all day about her, but I realize it would be embarrassing for her and not so entertaining for the reader to be enlightened by the obvious. For now, we'll continue the weekend visits to one another's city. And during that process, we'll simply immerse ourselves into the joy of living out our mutual admiration for one another and see how our individual lives can enrich our future.
The days of feeling alone seem so distant now. They slip away delicately, yet, a reminiscent view of the past flashes through my head every so often. It's during those times that my fall is cushioned by Amanda. A reminder of God's loving arms for me. I miss your hands, AmandaLyn...
~KH
Breach (viewed on 2/17): 8 Turkey Legs
2 comments:
I think Chad and I should start a pool on when "the date" is gonna be...hehe :)
-LP
Trust me, you guys won't be the first (or the second, third, fourth...)
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